The sound of my heartbeat

Can you hear your heartbeat

Like I can mine,

Do you fear it may stop

Any moment anytime,

Trapped in the fear of feeling

Any moment could be my last,

This then makes my heartbeat

Race so very fast,

It leaves me fearing living

It leaves me fearing death,

Leaves me scared that every single breath,

Could be the last one I ever take

Life I know is one that we create,

So why am I creating a life in a fearful way

Then life begins to be a pain,

So then it seems easier to take my own life each day

Put an end to all the fear and what awaits,

The certainty of knowing every day

That death is only ever one step away.

This is an attempt to understand those who suffer suicidal tendencies. Such a difficult mental health issue to comprehend unless you’re there living it. My heart goes out to all those suffering from this.