Sat in my car today by the edge of the steps that led down to the beach
And as the rain washed down and beat on my windscreen
And I thought for a moment just accelerate
Into the sea of crashing waves and spume before me
And in a moment as the car filled with water I could meditated until the end
Where I will finlly find peace and bliss and lose myself in suffocation
Where all the stress and burdens will finally fade away
And in that moment I could let go.
Then in that moment I also realised that escape was not designed for me
Though I am strangely drawn to the sea
As we are old adversaries or compadres
That we are forever connected somehow
This powerful voluminous force
That was not my destiny, at least for today
Maybe that will change another day
But for now the struggle continues as life goes on
In its beautiful yet hard knock way.
fauxcroft 
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