I question myself everyday
While acting out the mundane,
Travelling to work everyday
Same trip, same train,
Can I break this cycle
Can I break this chain,
Sometimes I get hopeful
Through the thoughts I create
But then the self doubts creeps in
I think I am deluding myself,
That this is how life is
And there is nothing else.
Don’t look for more
For this is all there is,
I should lower my expectations
Be happy that I simply exist.
Yet I feel I was created to achieve more
I feel that there is more in store,
I feel like there is something behind a door
But I cannot find the key to unlock it,
I cannot seem to find what’s inside
And it torments my heart, soul and mind
And I end up asking am I wasting my time.
I just don’t know
So I just keep persevering with it,
Hoping something will change
But maybe that’s the crux of it
Hoping and waiting for something to happen,
Maybe that’s what wrong, I got to make it happen,
I got to do more to effect change,
I have to more in different ways.
I just don’t know,
I just can’t tell,
Sometimes I feel like screaming
Sometimes I want to yell,
Why can’t the answers come easier
I am searching within myself
But I am finding hard to discover just what else,
That I can do
To change things up,
To break the chains,
To achieve a change,
In my life that I need
And that I seek,
Or should I simply accept this life
That I currently live,
It’s hard and it’s a struggle
But there are millions worse off than me,
I just wish I could find the answers,
To these questions that I seek.
fauxcroft 
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