I sit here in my almost bankrupt state
Wondering how I got to this place
Just getting by I scrimp and scrape
Nothing ever seems to change
For all my life so far it’s been this way
I am not sure it will ever go way.
Ok I’ve never been destitute or in the street
I really do appreciate this
And I have always had a degree of comfort
But it come at a cost of debt and loss.
Don’t get me wrong I appreciate life
And show gratitude for all its true
But just once I’d like to smile
As good fortune decides to visit me
For once the pressure and stress to ease
Where I don’t feel helpless and on blended knees.
It would be nice to sleep at night
Not having to lay awake in a sweat
Worrying and living from pay cheque to pay cheque
And will I be able to pay my bills.
Would it not be nice if the dark clouds of debt cleared
It would help my life shine a little more light
Wouldn’t it be good if the wolf left my door
It would lighten my mood a little bit more.
Yet a fighter I am and have always had to be
Understand the basic need
To remain hopeful and maintain my dreams
Be kind compassionate and remain rooted in love
But seeing my son play
ooblivious to the the stresses and strain
That comes with getting to adult age
I wish I could of remained in childhood
Rather than transition to adulthood
Because being an adult is so tough
And sometimes it feels like life truly sucks.