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Sometimes you can invest so much in something, love life ,work that it becomes who you are and becomes an attachment where you give so much of yourself that you lose who you truely are.working all the hours to give the family everything they need and want out of love not just duty or diligence.
Then one day someone can just pull the rug from under you and say words that can never be taken back or erased. Words like ‘I don’t love you anymore and actually I don’t even like you’. When this happens life can spin out of control. At this point you can lose yourself to the shadows and the darkness of despair. You can live vicariously through other people believing that they can help you to find yourself again but they just drag you deeper into someone you are not.
Finally something snaps and along with the lost love goes the family and all you worked for. Suddenly everything changes. Then a tragic loss occurs and you find yourself on a precipice. Ready to dive head long into despair and depravity of pain and hurt.
That’s when you take a step back and survive and rebuild your life and who you really are. You become authentic but it’s hard and it takes time and sometimes you slip and sometimes you fail but you pick yourself up. After losing love you search for new love but cannot find it. Why? because you look in the wrong places. You have to look within first. You have find and discover self love. For how can others love you if you don’t love yourself. Then you start to realize that to do this is to accept you are flawed except you made mistakes. The take responsibility for them and then you learn to forgive yourself and soon the love of self and others appears. That’s when you notice all that has gone before is past and cannot be changed. You learn from what you went through and it makes you a better person for it. Not perfect but better. That’s when you realize you have let go of the past and you have let love in. There is still much work to do and still so far to go but you now see life with hope in your mind and a blissful heart and soul. The key is to know that you are now on the right path and though it is long and fraught with obstacles you find happiness in knowing that the path is one that leads to peace love benevolence and compassion and finally to a blissful rest. In this you find your true being ,in this you find who the real you is. I know because I travelled this road and lived this life. For I was that guy.